Waiting on God’s Timing: Trusting Him When the Answer is ‘Not Yet’

 Hey Crosswoven Family,

It’s been a while since I’ve written here, and I’ve missed it so much. Life has been busy, but through it all, God has been working—sometimes in ways I don’t understand, and sometimes in ways that feel like a deep ache in my soul. Today, I want to talk about something that has been weighing heavy on my heart: waiting on God’s timing.

For as long as I can remember, I have longed to be a mother. This isn’t just a fleeting thought—it’s something that grips my heart so tightly that some nights I cry myself to sleep because the desire is so strong. I’m only 17, and I know logically that now isn’t the right time. But my heart doesn’t always listen to logic. Some days, it feels impossible to breathe through the ache of waiting. I feel unseen, unheard, and like God is giving me a million ‘no’s’ and ‘not yets.’

I’ve wrestled with thoughts that maybe God made me so good with kids because I won’t be able to have my own one day. That fear alone shatters me. It makes me question why He would give me such a strong maternal heart but tell me to wait. Why would He let me love children so deeply but hold my own desires at arm’s length?

But here’s what I’ve been learning: waiting doesn’t mean forgotten. Waiting doesn’t mean unloved. Waiting doesn’t mean God is cruel or distant. It means He sees something I don’t. And He promises that His plans are better than anything I could ever dream of.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” – Isaiah 55:8-9

God sees the full picture. While I see the heartache of waiting, He sees the beauty of perfect timing. He knows when I will be ready. He knows when the child He has planned for me will be ready. Maybe that’s years from now, and maybe it’ll look different than I expect, but I have to trust that His ‘not yet’ is a gift, not a punishment.

One of the hardest things about waiting is feeling like God isn’t answering. But sometimes, silence is the answer. Sometimes, He is growing us in the waiting, strengthening our faith, and refining our hearts so we are prepared for what He has planned.

“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” – Psalm 27:14

Waiting doesn’t mean doing nothing. It means preparing. It means leaning into Him, growing in faith, and trusting that the ‘not yet’ isn’t a ‘never.’

So if you’re in a season of waiting—whether it’s for a child, a relationship, a dream, or healing—I want you to know you’re not alone. I’m walking this road with you, and more importantly, God is walking this road with us. His timing is never late, never wrong, and never without purpose.

“Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” – Psalm 37:4

Maybe right now, the desire for a baby feels overwhelming, and the waiting feels unbearable. But I’m choosing to believe that God is working behind the scenes. That He hasn’t forgotten me. That He hasn’t forgotten you. And one day, when the time is right, the waiting will make sense, and we’ll see His fingerprints all over the journey.

If you’re struggling with waiting, I’d love to hear your heart in the comments or messages. Let’s encourage each other in this season, knowing that God’s promises are always worth the wait.

With love and faith,
Shyanne Diels